Economic Crisis !!!

Ahhhh ~

The hard time in life

Days recently are best to describe as bumpy. Lots of ups n down which i barely can cope with. Things dont turn out the way i expect. Nothing seems to happen da way i want it to b. In these dark moments, ntg i can do but helplessly walk thru all these. Stay strong kangjie, things 've turn out slightly better. U can defeat dem =)

Foolish

im stupid

jus another emo post

Login' into my blog, planing 2 refresh it with some c-weet c-weet post, to rub off the gloomy feelings which diffused throught the page. b'ut I just couldnt. Realising m such a emo kid whom likes to get so super upset n depressed during late nite, unfortunately prohibited from shouting out loud. (bcos neighbour will curse la duh><) Guess dis is da onli place i can spam my bu-suang-ness untill my mana runs out (diao, i've stock of lotz of lesser clarity pots in order 4 me to spam) -.- My brain is over congested with all sorts of nonsense till it cant function properly- 'psychological brain congestion' i named it. Can anyone save me out from all these bullshits!? FUCKKKKKKKKK
ahh, even cursing doesnt help much d... I guess my PBC is getting tenat -.- how i wish i can leave all these bhind n live in my own world.. happily , peacefully without needing to bother so much
"take drug la bodoh, codeine, cocaine, morphin etc etc..."
DIAMLARHHHHHHH
"wake up la, there's no such world"

dunno... reli dunno....
WTF
WTf


wtf....
wtf........

wtf
wtf

失败

我终究还是败了下来，败给了自己，彻底的败了。
对于眼前的这一切我真的无能为力。
只能感觉源源不绝的压力不断的往脑袋冲，
推挤着大脑，碰撞着头骨，好像随时都会爆裂，
脑浆随之射出。

浓浓的哀愁从心中肆无忌惮的扩散，
侵蚀着每一条神经，吞噬着仅剩的每一份力量。
心情已坠入深不见底的悬崖，却还未着地，
仍然的，往下陷。
挤压，碰撞，敲打着我的胸口，
疼痛不已，仿佛要我受尽折磨方肯罢休。

眼睁睁的看着，体会着这一切，
我能做的就只是默默的接受，
毫无招架之力，
只能让自己慢慢的沉沦，
一点一滴的堕落．．．
消失．．．
或许，这就是你想看到的吧？

此刻，我是个疯子，对着空气喃喃自语，
百般控诉的疯子．．．
是的．．
是．．．疯子

无奈与绝望

只身在狭窄的房间，我沉默着。
靠在冰冷的砖墙，一阵寒意从赤裸的背直袭大脑。
我不断的把头往后敲，敲向没有感情的墙壁。
“咚、咚、咚．．．”
一声、一声的敲着．．．
头和墙壁发出的声音回荡在耳边，多么悦耳啊。

疲乏的撑起了身子，突然感到一阵晕眩
整个人跌趴在地。
痛？好像不怎么觉得。
勉强的又站了起来，左摇右晃的。

走到厕所，望向镜子。
模模糊糊的看见一张苍白的脸，
空洞的眼神，有气无力的感觉不到一点生气。
是我吗？好像．．．是吧．．．

找了个角落，蹲着。
世界的一切好像都与我隔绝了。
无奈，绝望　包围着我，
紧紧地勒着我，一步步的逼近
就要气绝，要窒息了．．．
崩溃了．．．

．．

想念

你知道吗...
我很想念你

是的。
就是你 =P